Today I was paid many praises and compliments.
Recently I had told a friend of mine that I had thought about withdrawing from school this semester. My stubborn hide can’t really force myself to do something that I don’t want. He wished to convince me that the best path would be to finish all of my classes – and to this he told me of my great potential: I have beautiful entrancing eyes (not his words but will suffice for meaning), attractive, intelligent, and relatability. If I didn’t know before, I know now. Or at least to some degree that I indeed have a lot of power over people. I had forgotten that and minimized my ability to have people walk in sync to my rhythm. I still think of withdrawing, the only downside in my mind is financial. But hearing that, there was a strange dream revived – to build a network of contacts and to enter a political realm where I may be able to put myself to some good use for society and myself.
I slowly thought, what if I got an Associates from the Academy of Art in San Francisco and instead got a psych degree with a biology minor here at BHSU? Saying this now I feel more inclined to keep a Bachelor’s in Illustration and study in my spare time all those other subjects that I couldn’t bear to receive a grade for. I have many psych majors for friends… smart ones too. Maybe they’ll teach me a few things about people, their interpersonal and intrapersonal relationships and I can connect a few dots on my own. And maybe I will write a comic about it.
Today M told me that if I wanted to be with him I would need a career because he has to think about taking care of his kid on the way. In that moment I realized, I still loved him very much and loved that he had matured to such a point. I hope he and I keep growing. Maybe one day again our paths will intertwine.
Compliments are special. My friend Steve’s made me ponder ambition and game. It was thrilling to hear such wonderful things about myself and I am going to put it to the test with some of my other friends. I wonder if it’s true! A long while ago, I was taught how to give a compliment. There’s a little trick to it: sincerity. If you’re not being genuine, it comes out. And at that time while I learned how to give a compliment (still haven’t learned much on how to take one) I’d learned to give them often. There’s something beautiful about the way people’s eyes light up when they hear the truth in your words. Sometimes it makes their day. Be honest: haven’t you ever gotten a compliment you couldn’t stop thinking about? You told your friends about? Ones that made you smile? So here’s a compliment that can’t be spared: you give the best hugs. Whoever in the world you are. Let that empower you, like it empowers me so that we may help raise each other up.