Perhaps it really just boils down to what little passion I did have for my area of study no longer serves me in the continuation of my studies. I’ve sat on this for nearly two whole years and here I am suffering in my fifth semester. Currently I am a Biology Education student with a Chemistry minor, and I have completed enough of my major to actually have a minor in it.
This entire semester, I’ve been pitching the idea to my friends that I am thinking of changing my major. I have found a few people who are excited as I am for the prospect of changing my major. Some aren’t. I’ve been asked about why am I changing my mind so late in the game. And I couldn’t tell you how much that actually hurt to hear. But I remained steadfast and gave this reasoning: I am unhappy, and I have no passion for what I am doing right now. The words sounded good, they resounded in my mind. It possessed the quality of sounded of what a confident me would have said. For the friends that were sympathetic and shared my dream of doing what I dreamed of doing, I am eternally grateful. My dear friend John gave me just enough of the push in the right direction to start this new path.
And from this diversion, I walked onto another road which was laced with more bends and turns that I had known before. Suddenly, the future of living with my ex-fiance has come back into view. My childhood dream of becoming a part of a development team for a video game is back into view. Moving to another state when (as a friend’s mother puts it) my gypsy blood is boiling has come back into view. So many interesting things are happening because I am taking steps forward in my life.
In my heart, I also know that if I do not completely succeed, that if I don’t go into designing the characters for the video games I want. But the fact that I am going to try is going to is so uplifting. And there’s a chance I may end up with my ex-fiance (which is a hot topic in my life) and that won’t be botched by my pursuing this. There are so many opportunities. I can more openly express my religion and find the materials needed to practice my paganism. But it feels right. Even though I will be leaving behind some wonderful friends, I am going to try and hold onto them!
Recently I got a call from a school that I had requested some info from. It’s been mentioned in another post. An admissions rep called me and it was a very productive conversation that left me feeling very positive.
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